I DESPISE MYSELF, so frikin' much.
Despite everything that's in my power I can't yet control my emotions, which really irritates me. But no way I'm still happy so I gotta keep on living no matter the circumstances. But still today was a big shock from my emotions and to see how selfish I can be, I never knew myself, I hate that part of me. But there are people who are just amazing, they just put me at ease with just saying "Hi" or smiling or hugging me, that's why I can't let go of that, I will never let go of that.
That's my paradise.